#no dean rambling this time

[hakusins]

hakudean mini event! first rq: cu alter by freak anon!

[saturnneedsspace]

*Cas anytime he remembers Dean exists*: :)

[sorrysamgirls]

i love moral grey areas i love characters who are both right and wrong at the same time i love characters who do bad things in order to do good things i love it when characters contradict themselves i love characters who contain multitudes i love it when characters are neither right nor wrong but a secret third thing (mentally ill) i love nuance and complexity and i love it when characters make mistakes and experience conflict that leaves you going hmmm i’m not sure who i agree with here. because it’s FUN and SEXY

[raevenswritingdesk]

And wait what’s this hERE COMES JACKLES WITH A STEEL CHAIR

[welcometogrouchland]

my Stephanie Brown hot take is that she should get mad bitches now that she's single in comics. Yes yes shipping BUT the one time she had sex she was punished by the narrative via teen pregnancy. I think she should be allowed to have as much sex as she wants with zero consequences. Could be a lot of sex, could be a little. Point is she should get to do it without getting narratively baby trapped this time. she should get them pregnant, actually.

[shyshitter]

me experiencing a severe depressive episode: you know what i feel like watching inexplicably for absolutely no discernable reason at all. supernatural

[qkmlh]

Do you think the only two things Dean would consider his, wholeheartedly with his entire being, would be Sam and Baby??

[overactiveprefrontalcortex]

whatever they were feeding him in s1, why tf did they stop

[fredandginger64]

I was reading today about Sammy Davis Jr's death in 1990, and I ran across an article on men kissing in public, with Jerry being mentioned as a man who kissed other men in public. It got me thinking about Dean and Jerry. My God, Dean and Jerry kissed practically every day, either onstage, or in their Colgate shows, and I'm beginning to think it was an excuse so they could kiss. Who knows what they did backstage. No wonder they were suspected homosexuals.

Article from The Californian, July 19, 1989

[hakusins]

you can't look me in the eye and tell me that seth didn't birth anubis himself like look at this???

[coca-colas-truck-driver]

“oh, wow. she dumped you.” CUT! hey, jared, could you say it more sympathetic and less betrayed? no? okay, just- i guess thats fine?

but the “you loved her, and you dumped her” isnt posed as any kind of question, sam doesnt ask why, because he doesnt really care about the why, he just likes that dean had done it. then dean barely gives him a look and suddenly its “oh, wow-“ and the smile he just had is gone and sams looking like he just got told the trip to disney was cancelled over being told it was the other way around. this isnt sympathy its like jealousy mixed with curiosity idk

his tone just goes from teasing to bitter so fast, he doesnt follow dean into the car, and looks around for a second while he thinks about he feels about that. because dean has always been with women, and while it had made sam bitter ever since he was eleven and could place the feeling he got watching dean come back to the motel room covered in hickeys and scratch marks, he had gotten over it after stanford. he didnt have any right to feel that way, and realized how wrong it was he did when he was in a stable environment away from the other half of that co-dependent relationship.

now the feelings hed never addressed about dean fucking anything that is human and wears a skirt are back for the first time since he left for stanford, except this time its about a genuine romantic connection dean had. dean had loved cassie, and she left him, and he just told dean to go talk to her. had been making innuendos about them all day, even

[a-vibing-potato]

I want to watch Supernatural so baddddd. It's not even that amazing on there right now! It's not like everything is super good or fun or cute but I just NEED to see where we go from here and how. This is exactly how I was for the first half of season 6. Even though I hated it, I had to know where we went from this point. But I have schoooool.

[entropyofnuance]

Also also also. Let’s talk about John Winchester. Let’s talk about the fact that your abuser can love you and you can love them back. And the way Dean feels his emotions so strongly which leads him to be so full of love and also so full of anger. He is a reflection of John Winchester in this way. Dean loves his father as his father loved him and they are both severely traumatized and they are both soldiers in a war they never asked to be in and have only been taught love and anger and responsibility and failure and fear. When anything threatens their loved ones, even if it’s another loved one, the threat must be taken out. This is absolute. It’s why John was so hard on Dean. It’s why Dean is so hard on Sam and on Cas and on Jack. It’s why they yell so loud and punch so hard and hug so tightly. They are desperate men. At their core they are scared by what they have had to become strong against and a man that has something to lose is a man who should be feared.

John Winchester loved his kids. He loved them enough to want them safe at any cost, even if it made him the villain in their story. Dean knows this kind of love. It’s the only love he’s ever had. He knows it like he knows the beat of his own heart, it’s his as much his as it is his father’s. Fits him like John’s old leather coat. Dean understands the loss his father has gone through. He understands what losing Mary meant. The burdens they carried were the same.

Sam has known a kinder love. The love of his brother. His brother who would keep him safe against any monster. A love that didn’t have the weight of responsibility, and so Sam never posed a threat to the safety of John’s loved ones. Sam understood love to be stolen Christmas presents and the last bowl of cereal and a ruffle of hair during class change. Because of Dean, Sam never understood John’s love, and so he focused on the abuse. He focused on the love he couldn’t find from his father. Oh man oh man oh man. I could write a thesis on them.

Oh god I’m going to keep going. John had to leave. He had to find what killed Mary. He had to leave Lawrence and go on the road and find Azazel. But he refused to leave his kids, the way his dad left him, because he loved them so much. And yes, he would leave to go on hunts, but he always came BACK. John had been hurt before and so he taught his kids how to defend themselves so they would never go through the pain he has felt. He taught them to never turn your back on your family. He taught them how to hunt the ghosts and demons that could take from you those you love most. He was obsessive and so deeply sad and Sam and Dean are cut from the same cloth.

“Everything you’ve done, you’ve done for love”

(I also just want to clarify: I am not condoning John’s behavior. He 100% abused his sons and that was not okay. I also recognize the differences between him and Dean and how important they are. However, I wanted to point out that the static “villain” title for John Winchester is doing a disservice to understanding the beauty and complexity of Sam and Dean both, and his love, however painful, is just as important to the plot as his hate is)

[sugarcoated-lame]

just finished supernatural

[viktorshexcore]

I might be falling in love with Astarion again...

[acediscowlng]

i wanna see an spn and dbda crossover to happen partly because i wanna see edwin play trauma olympics with the winchesters and the look on sam and dean's faces when this prudish edwardian child inevitably and inexplicably wins